Thursday Five!

The rules are simple: Wanna play? All you have to do is post 5 things that have made you






Jubilant





Giddy





Excited





Thankful





Stoked





Basically... just post 5 things that have made you happy then head back to MannLand5 to get your link on!



1) I'm loving my new job! It's noce to have the income, and the people I work with are really nice.





2) C is interviewing for a job tomorrow :)





3) My beach trip is only one week away. HALLELUJAH! I'm praying no oil has messed up my pretty beach.. :-/





4) Tomorrow is Friday! Enough said :)





5) My sunburn is gone, so i can get back in the tanning bed now! :)





Happy Thursday sweeties!

The True Meaning of Memorial Day

So, I've felt this tugging feeling at my heartstrings all day, and I know its related to tomorrow. I'm probably the single most patriotic person in this country. Memorial day holds a special place for me. Thank GOD i've never experienced the death of a loved one who was overseas, and I know many of you lovely ladies have. I'm very thankful for that. But my family is full of military personnel and Memorial day has always been special for us.

This morning in church, they played a video dedicated to fallen soldiers, about a girl who as a child wrote letters to her daddy, who was deployed....the video goes on to show how she continued to write letters, even after her father had died, and how she made a point as an adult to make sure her children knew the depth of their grandfather's love. Even though they had never met him. It was so touching.

I just really want to take a few minutes to honor our heros. They deserve it. Hope you enjoy.


Oorah. <3

Summer Plans. :)

Ok, so I'm a HORRIBLE procrastinator. and a horrible blogger.  You guys probably think i've fallen off the face of the planet. Anyways....here goes an update.

I got a JOB! YAY!!! It's not exactly the kind of job I was looking for, but I'm not complaining! I've spent 26 hours since Wednesday working in a Barbeque restaurant. Pulling pork, making sandwiches, potato salad, baked beans and cole slaw. Glamorous huh? It's cool though. I'm making money and that makes me like the happiest person ever.

C is still preparing to leave for boot. I'm getting more and more used to the idea. However, I'm ANAL about his ship date. If he doesn't leave at just the right time, I'm afraid I won't get to go to graduation. Seeing as how nursing school instructors seem to be kind of like demons encased in human flesh, if i happen to be in clinicals the week he graduates, I doubt seriously i'll be able to get out of clinical. Just let me tell you, if I miss his graduation I'm gonna be 5 foot 6 inches of PURE HELL. But the thing is, if he leaves on his ORIGINAL ship date, he will graduate in early January and I won't have to miss it. So I'm praying daily that he holds out.....though I just found out tonight that someone who is supposed to leave on June 14 has been in the hospital for weeks with staff infection and probably won't ship.....so there's the potential that C will take his spot. I'm very if-y about that date because he will graduate in September...and I have no idea when 2nd semester clinicals start....ugh. :(

Anyways, on to happier things.

I have some KILLER tan lines. :) and that makes me very very happy. I've been laying out, outside a lot, and today, I started going to the tanning bed. How cool is that my mom's best friend has a tanning bed and I get to go for FREE? I love it. I'm hoping for a dead-sexy tan by the time we go to the beach in 2 weeks!

That's something else I'm incredibly excited about! I adore the beach! It's like the air is just easier to breathe. Ahh! I can't wait....However, I am  a litte skeptical....I'm hoping the Deep Water Horizon oil spill will hold off and not make Gulf Shores Beach all nasty and gross before i get there.......(come on oil, you've held off this long, just give me 2 more weeks!)

Ok, so....I have sooooo many plans for the money I'm gonna make this summer!
Numero Uno: Haircut.
Yup, I'm chopping it off. It desperately needs to be short. It's waaaaaay to hot to be carrying a mane like this around. But, I'll get it done, Candace (my hair stylist) does an AMAZING job, and always gives me a style I love.

Number Two:
New Stereo (and speakers if I can afford them) for my car! I desperately need  a stereo with an AUX input so I can jam out to my iPod. and I'd LOVE a CD changer...I'm addicted to music... Also, the speakers I have are complete crap. One barely works, another is busted.....and the rest are just horrible quality....so, if money allows, a new sound system is desperately in order.

Number Three:
$30 will ABSOLUTELY go towards an armband to get me into the Neshoba County Fair in July. That is by far my FAVORITE part of the summer! There is always great friends, great food, rodeos, concerts, dances, and you can get ANYTHING fried. I'm not kidding....funnel cakes, chicken on a stick, twinkies....oreos....you name it, they'll deep fry it for ya. It
s so nostalgic...haha. I LOVE the fair!


Anyways, that's basically it for now. Hope all of you beautiful people are having an amazing summer!

love love.

I Want It Wednesday!

THIS.

This is what I want today.

C and I have always talked about wanting a bulldog puppy just because we think they are precious...but now that he's in the Marines, it would be like having our own mascot!

I love the idea of having my own personal Devil Dog...when my man can't be around!

The only problem is that most bulldogs puppies are rediculously expensive......but it's okay! When I graduate, and C graduates boot, we will have extra money and I WILL own one of these adorable creatures!

I mean, wouldn't he be a great little brother for this:

This is Gypsy. She currently holds my heart. But I'm convinced she needs an adorable little brother :)

What do YOU want today?

Not Me Monday!

So...I got this idea from Mrs. S over at The Adventures of Mr. Superman and Mrs. S and I thought I'd give it a try!

Here's a flashback from my week:


Last monday I definitely did not lay out on the beach with C for 2 hours. I didn't yell at the clouds for covering the sun while I was trying to tan, and I most certainly did not jump up and down like a crazy person when I realized last years bikini fit MUCH cuter this year. Thats something a 16 year old, single, self-image obsessed highschool girl with tons of extra time on her hands would do, not me.

Wednesday I did not have an emotional breakdown and run crying to C's house at 8 pm. I preceded not to spend the next two hours crying my eyes out on his bed over unnecessary drama. I didn't call my best friend crying, only to hang up on her a few seconds later leaving her utterly confused, and I definitely did not play pool until 1 am because it distracted me from life. That's something an emotionally unstable drama queen would do, not me.

Thursday I most certainly didn't spend 3 hours watching prime time television. I did not get super-excited about the season finale of Private Practice, and I definitely did not get even more excited about this weeks season finale of Grey's Anatomy. (and in case you are wondering, i'm definitely not obsessed with Grey's!)
I also did not demand that momma pause the DVR several times throughout the 3 hours of not watching TV so I could pee. Thats something a TV addict would do, not me.

Friday, I was not the one clapping loudest, or screaming loudest, for my best friend as she graduated with her associates degree. I did not stand up and clap when she walked across the stage, and I most certainly did not whistle obnoxiously loud for her in an otherwise quiet auditorium. That's something an obnoxious sports fan would do, not me.

Saturday, I did not spend all day sleeping and playing video games. I didn't leave the house, spur of the moment, to go with "my boys" on a random road trip 45 minutes from home, to spend 3 hours walking around walmart. That's something a silly teenager would do, not me.

What did you not do?

Help! Help! Advice needed!!!

I'm getting so lazy with these entries. UGH. Shame on me. Summer is definitely here. I'm LOVING my tan (even though its barely visible, but, I'm working on that)!

Soooo, I need some help! C has decided that we should up the wedding. He thinks we should get married when he finishes boot camp, which will be January. I haven't completely agreed yet, since I had my heart set on finishing college before we marry. However, he makes a good point. He will spend almost a year after boot camp in SOI and Sniper School and I can finish school. Plus, If we go ahead and get married, he can send me the extra money to pay my bills/buy groceries/live instead of being a broke college kid...I just don't know! I really want a traditional wedding, with all the frills that go with it; but if we get married so soon, there won't be time to plan all that, or money to get everything with. It's sooooo much to think about! What do you think????? I desperately need some input!

Sing It Sunday!/Happy Mother's Day!

Sing It Sunday!

Music is a HUGE part of my life. Sometimes a song can reflect exactly how I'm feeling when I can't find the words to do it myself. It doesn't matter what I'm doing. Driving, laying out, cooking, cleaning, doing homework, running...there is ALWAYS music involved. So, I thought I would share with you guys, some of the songs that are currently on my most-listened-to list. Enjoy!


All Over Me by Josh Turner

This is my theme song! I'm a summer child, for sure. I'm happiest when its 90+ degrees outside and I'm on the beach/boat/lake etc. Plus, I just moved back home from college and I'm just now starting to spend some real quality time with C. So this song completely fits my life! Love love love it!

Jump by Flo Rida

Okay, so I've been running almost every day. Go me! Anyways, this is one of the most EPIC running songs ever. It just makes me wanna run faster and faster! It definitely pumps me up and keeps me going when I wanna be lazy and quit! Haha.

Love Your Love The Most by Eric Church

Story time! Ok so, when this song first came out, C heard it before I did. He called me, but I didnt get to the radio in time.....then a few days later, I caught the very end of it on the radio....He finally sat me down in front of YouTube and played it for me (and sang it!). It's been "our song" ever since. It was the song played to a slideshow of pictures I gave him for out 2 year anniversary, and also the first song we danced to when we reconciled after our breakup last year. This song means alot to me.

Tik Tok by Ke$ha

Mmk, This one had to make the list, just because its been dubbed the official "girls night" song for my group of friends. Haha. This MUST be played in the car on the way to the bar or someone freaks. haha. Just something fun to be silly to.

Ok, well there's this weeks sneak peak into my iPod!

Now, i'd like to wish all the bloggy momas a BIG Happy Mother's Day! Enjoy your day (and your sweet babies)! I salute you for being the strong one when your man is away. The rest of us have the liberty to break down whenever we feel like it. You all have to put on a smile and hold it together for those little ones who don't understand. I commend you for that. Congrats on being supermom. :)

Sweet Summertime :)

First off, YAY for summer. Gosh, I'm like the happiest girl in the whole world right now. Here's an update on my life since school ended:

I successfully moved my stuff home BY MYSELF. I feel very accomplished. Granted, it took like....2 hours to get everything situated in the back of my SUV, but I did it! It was very empowering :) However, now that everything is home.....NOTHING is unpacked. It just seems like there is too much to do, too many people to see! There's no time to bother with unpacking (or blogging, until now. Sorry guys!).

I have started working on my tan, and I must say, it's beautiful :)

I've also enjoyed spending all my extra time with C. since he has been informed that he is next on the list to ship out if someone doesn't meet their requirements for any of the ship-out dates before his. He isn't scheduled to leave until the fall, but there are severeal dates coming up before then, so if someone doesnt make it, my baby will be gone early. I'm really hoping he doesnt have to go until his original leave date. I've got all the details worked out so I can be at graduation if he leaves when he is supposed to. If he leaves early, I'm not sure how well the arrangements can be made. Nursing school doesn't like to accomodate. :(

Anyways, I can't WAIT for this week to be over! All my friends that are going to the college here don't get out of school for another week. So, I haven't gotten to spend much time with them. However, that will change.

I'm just looking forward to spending this summer with C and our friends and trying to make memories before he leaves. It's still surreal sometimes that this is actually about to happen. I'm very proud of him, but i've always been freakishly scared of the unknown....so I'm definitely learning to adjust...

Ok, excuse me while I rant for a minute. I CAN'T STAND it when people start childish highschool drama. Just sayin. Especially when its people whose children are college-aged. It is just rediculous! And then, they want to blame it on the military. I mean, really?
Ok, so in case you haven't figured it out yet, C's dad and stepmom are not very supportive of his decision. So me, being the loud mouth that I am, told them what I thought about their non-supportiveness. So, that combined with me being rather blatant about my opinion on another subject has convinced them that I'm not worthy of their sons affections. Crazy, huh? I'm the only one who fully supports his decision and I think that its a crying shame. So, when C told them that he loved me anyways, and that just because they randomly decided to hate me didn't mean that he was going to, they decided to be shady towards him too. So he and I have been dealing with quite a bit of stress related to that. I mean, am I crazy?? Or is it completely retarded for parents to condemn their children for wanting to serve their country????

OK, enough. I'm done. Well, I could go on forever, but I won't. Number one, because I know you wonderful people don't read my blog to hear me whine. Number two, I'm on my way out the door to go eat catfish :)

Have a great night lovelies!

Until next time, love love love.

Countdown until C leaves for bootcamp: 163 days

Update :) I NEED SUGGESTIONS (see #4)

Yeah so, I know that my blogs have very bland titles right now...but give me a break. I don't have the brain space to come up with anything clever at the moment. However, I do have a few good things to share...

1.) Check-offs. Were today. I lived. I PASSED believe it or not. (Well, according to C, I was gonna pass all along, I wasnt so sure...). That's one HUGE weight off my shoulders. Now to study for my other 4 finals! Ugh!

2.) Housing. I DID get approved for my apartment next semester! Yay-uh! I can't wait to have a real kitchen....so I can cook real food! No more yucky cafeteria food!!!!!! (well, atleast a drastically reduced amount of yucky cafeteria food..) Also, my two best friends from school got an apartment in the same complex, so we will live right across the parking lot from each other!

3.) So, the apartment is actually about $700 cheaper than what I'm paying to live on campus (because meals arent included and such.) Soo, with that $700, I can afford to join the gym, go to the tanning bed, and lots of other really fun things next semester!

4.) So, I've decided to stop being a baby and do something big (well, big for me). I'm getting a tattoo. :)
It's quite a big step for me, since i've always been the child that followed the rules....and the incredibly pain intolerant one...(My mother would quite possibly have a heart attack if she knew.) But, I'm turning 21 this year....so I'm thinking that sounds like a pretty awesome birthday treat. BUT, I have no idea what to get! Please send your suggestions :)

5.) The job hunt continues. I applied for 5 more jobs today and emailed a nurse manager about possibly positions. It seems like this job thing is going to be the death of me. this is probably the 4th or 5th time I've sat down and applied for atleast 5 jobs. so that like what....20-25 job applications??? And I haven't heard from a single person....bleck. However, I have come to grips with the fact that I could possibly wait tables all summer if need be. I just have to SOMETHING to make money. *Oh the joys of student loans...*

6.) I haven't even started packing yet. Ugh. I have like....6 loads of laundry to do. No lie. But I don't know what I'll do with them once they're clean! No. Space. Whatsoever. Ugh. But my mommy is coming on sunday to take stuff home :) So, maybe I can get more organized after that.


Anyways, thats about it for now. Until next time, love love.

Countdown to Summer: 6 days
Countdown till C leaves for bootcamp: 173 days

Almost Summer!

Wow....Life could you please slow down long enough for me to breathe? K thanks.

Finals are here. Well, almost. I have finals on Wed., Fri., Sat., Mon., and Tues. Then I'm free!!!!

So, with that in mind:

Plans for the Summer:

1) Gym.
2) Tanning Bed.
3) BEACH.
4) Neshoba County Fair.
5) Hopefully find a job. (cross your fingers!)
6) Go to as many rodeos as I can stand.
7) Barrel Racing practice.
8) Buy furniture for my new apartment!
9) Spend as much time with C as possible :)

So....my summer is gonna be pretty damn awesome. Well, thats the plan anyway.

However, I still have finals and checkoffs to get through...but I'm feeling slightly less anxious/nervous/scared about it all. I'm just ready for the semester to be done. I really neet some serious TLC. I can't wait.

I just really hope that I can find a job. I've applied at what seems like a million places and I haven't heard from anyone. Ugh. I dunno what I'll do if I cant make any money this summer. But I guess for now the best thing to do is not fret about it until I get done with all my tests.

The next week is going to be very stressful, not only do I have four finals and checkoffs to study for, I also have to figure out how to pack all my stuff up to move two hours back home. I have so much stuff in this dorm room that I can barely move. Anyways, i guess i'll figure it out eventually. Anyways, thats enough for now. Time to crack the books....love love.

 Countdown to Summer: 10 days :)
 Countdown till C leaves for bootcamp: 177 days

Recently.

So...I know it's been absolutely forever since I last blogged. Life has been so crazy. There are officially 24 days until I'm out of school for the summer. However, within these twenty four days are numerous obstacles that absolutely scare the shit out of me. Let's take a look:

1) Check-Off. For those of you who don't know what check off is, it's basically a full head-to-toe assessment of a patient (or classmate), while an instructor hovers over your shoulder waiting for one tiny error so they can kick you out. Well, I'm pretty sure they dont like kicking people out....but it's still a great possibility. And by the way, a full head-to-toe, is EPIC. It includes every single tiny part of the body, both internally and externally...every nerve, muscle, and bone must be inspected, palpated, percussed, and auscultated. Needless to say, this is an extremely nerve-wracking process.

2) Nursing Exams. 4 exams in 5 days. It kind of makes me want to assume the fetal position and try to become invisible. Nursing tests are hard when i have one test, and two weeks to study for it. Four tests in one week is humanly impossible. I just cant imagine possibly passing them all with decent grades.

3) Room Sign Up. Well, room sign up doesnt exactly scare me, I mean, all I have to do is put my name down for where I want to live next semester (APARTMENT!). But, I don't have a roommate.....sooo, I am a little nervous about who will sign up to live with me. Being a nursing major an all, I can't exactly deal with a roommate who parties non-stop. I'm just hoping for the best.

In other news, I still havent heard anything about a job for the summer...I'm still applying though. I don't know what I'll do if I can't work. I desperately need some money. Plus, most of my summer plans include things that will require money.
Ugh. Well, I guess we will see what happens.

I absolutely can't wait for school to be over. I feel like it will be forever before I get to spend time with C (the fiance). It seems as though this whole USMC thing is starting to wear on us already...and it hasn't even begun. Don't get me wrong, I CAN HANDLE IT. It just seems like I get so edgy sometimes. It just breaks my heart that I can't spend time with him and I feel like there is constantly this clock ticking in my head.....counting down until he leaves. It drives me crazy some days. I pray that the summer will relieve some of this tension.

Well, I do have one really awesome thing that happened to me this week. I got to deliver a baby. Like, for real. My clinical group was at the hospital when this doctor comes up and is like "Hey, I need a student to come with me." So, I volunteered. He told me that I was about to deliver a baby and I thought I was going to pass out. He helped me scrub in to the exam room and i walk in to find a woman in labor. The doctor walked me through every step, from catching the baby, waiting for it to cry, passing it off to the nurse..delivering the mother's placenta, drawing blood from the umbilical cord, and performing an episiotomy. I know for most of you this sounds gross, but I was the envy of my nursing class!
There is something absolutely amazing about bringing life into the world....I've never felt an adrenaline rush like that before in my life. It was incredible.

But anyways, that's a pretty decent update on my life for now.

Until next time...

Countdown to Summer: 24 days
Countdow till C goes to bootcamp: 120 days

Hurry Up & Wait.

So, I'm becoming more and more stressed as the semester pushes toward the end. It just feels like school will NEVER end; summer will NEVER come; it will NEVER be time for me to get married. It just seems like my whole life is spent doing nothing but waiting for something better to happen.

I hate to be a kill-joy but I just can't make myself be positive today. It's a major accomplishment that I haven't just sat down and cried today. Of course, the fact that I'm pretty sure I failed a pharmacology test today might have something to do with why I want to cry....who knows.

It just seems like relief will never come. But, what can I do?

Nothing but hurry up and wait.

Countdown to Summer: 36 days.
Countdown till Baby goes to Boot Camp: 132 days.

Pigskin, anyone? Or, how about a Baby?

So, the school put on a great event tonight. They had a showing of "The Blind Side" on a big screen projector in the middle of the street. It was amazing! That is by far one of the best movies I've ever seen. Tonight was not my first time to see it, but it was most certainly just as good the second time around!


For those of you who don't know, The Blind Side is about a family from Southern Tennessee who adopt a homeless highschool boy. They take him in and start culturing him, eventually getting him involved in football. Long story short, the boy is an amazing football player who ends up going to Ole Miss on a football scholarship and upon graduating, signs with the Baltimore Ravens. Based on the true story of Michael Oher.


It's quite an inspiring tale!


It really really really really makes me wish it was football season! It makes life without my honey much easier to deal with when I can go to football games. He LOVES football, and when I'm at a game, I can almost hear him explaining the rules to me over and over and over again....like he did the first year we were together. I was completely clueless as to how the game actually worked when we began our relationship....I mean, I knew that the object was to score touchdowns....but that was about it. Now, after he has been so patient with me....explaining things hundreds of times until i understood, I can almost interpret the game as well as he can.


That's one of the things I love most about him; it has never mattered how stupid I thought the question might be, he has always done his best to explain things to me, and answer every single little frivolous question that runs through my head. I find it amazing that he even trys to follow some of the thoughts that go through my mind...cause LORD knows they dont all make sense. But he has always been patient with me when I had questions and for that, I'll always love him.


In other news, the weather is beginning to perk up, and it's absolutely beautiful. It makes these last few weeks of school MURDEROUS. I cannot explain the loathing in my heart that I have for college classes at the moment. Beach, Bikini, Pool, SUMMER...Where are you??? Please hurry before I die.


Also, update on clinicals: So, I was totally prepared to NOT enjoy pediatric clincals (I hate seeing kids cry/get shots/be sick and all that jazz). But I actually fell in LOVE with it! Not sure how to feel about that, since I swore I'd never work with peds. I guess we suprise ourselves sometimes.


This afternoon, we were working in the daycare down the road from the school. Our task was to perform a developmental assessment on a child anywhere between the ages of 2 months and 6 years. My partner, Tara, and I ended up in the 6-9 month old room. Now, for the record, I was very proud of myself after leaving the hospital nursery clinical two weeks ago. I resisted those babies like I was a pro. However, day care was a different story. I definitely had a case of baby fever when I left. Those babies were so stinkin' cute! I know what you're thinking..yeah...they're cute until they cry, or throw up, or you have to change their diapers...but I'm completely used to doing that. My little brother and sister are 7 and 9 years younger than me. I've experienced that side of child rearing and it totally doesnt bother me. I've been thrown up on before..and I still really want a baby. Oh well, perhaps when the time is right.....which is still a minimum of three years from now.


Anyways, I guess thats enough of my rambles for tonight. Sleep tight everyone. Or, instead of sleeping tight, you could always take after me and Sleep Safe (Sleep with a Marine). ;-)

Peace & Blessings <3

Countdown to Summer: 39 days
Countdown till my heart leaves for boot camp: 135 days

Peace & Blessings :)

Ok, so I'm a slacker and I never got around to my second post yesterday....well, today was a little better.

Even though I had to sit through class from 8:00-3:00..it was still an okay day i guess.

Well, tomorrow will be quite interesting...I'll spend from 9am to 5pm at a pediatric clinic in downtown Jackson....trying to do physical assessments on millions of sick grumpy children....joy. BUT.....something good did happen this week....my clinical for friday, April 2 got cancelled....so guess who gets an extra day off for Easter!!! Whoop Whoop! Contemplating going home thursday night to see the Mr.......hmmmm...I think he might like that. ;)

I'm quite excited that there are only 41 days left in the semester. Just sayin.

In other news, I adopted a soldier. :) I'm quite excited about it. I wrote my first letter to him today...gonna try to get it in the mail soon. I also sent him an email yesterday. I can't stand the thought of a single soldier fighting for our freedom without some support from home.

Hmm...tests next week....joy joy....well, guess i'd better start studying/ doing laundry....

Peace & Blessings Ya'll.
<3 - Hannah

Can I Just Sit Down and Cry?

Wow. I can't remember the last time I've had to force myself through the day. Today has been a complete wreck, and for no apparent reason! I woke up on time, got to class on time....and the rest of the day was hell. I mean, nothing significant happened to make my day hellish, it just was. I found myself sitting in class crying...being stared at by my classmates like I was crazy; yet I had no explanation as to where the tears came from. I think maybe a combination of stressors caused this breakdown:

1) I can taste the summer, but the semester WONT END.
2) Drama, caused by my family, and his family. Unneccessary drama at that.
3) Looking for a summer job, this being broke business just isnt going to cut it.
4) Being away from him.

The list could go on and on. I know the stress is getting to me....i can barely eat. Well, thats one way to get the bikini body I've been striving for. Just not the way I planned. I'm still trying to eat though (for those of you who will reprimand me for not eating)!

As a matter of fact, I'm off to the cafeteria right now to meet a friend, and pray this day gets better. Until tonight's post (which I promise will be more optimistic), I'll be seeing you :)

Discontent.

Well, Short post tonight.

Today has been rather uneventful. Well, i've determined that if you are unhappy with Mississippi weather, take a nap, and when you wake up, the weather will be glorious. Thats what happened to me anyway.

I miss my man. More than words can say. I've always missed him when we are apart, but it's gotten worse lately. The moment I leave his side, I miss him. I dont ever want to be away from him. I never want to sleep alone.

I live for the day that we can be together on a dy-to-day basis. Though I know with his choice in career, that even throughout our marriage that wont always be possible. I think I'm just incredibly anxious to start my life. I feel like college has held onto me for so long...i'm ready to join the real world and start taking care of myself.

Ohhh the joys of impatience. Well, time for bed. Class from 8:30-4:30 tomorrow. joyfulness.

Emotions.

Back at school. :(

Today has been one full of emotion for me. First, I got up and went to church with my mom, little brother, and little sister. It was nice actually, except for the fact that it was practically sub zero outside.

Afterward, as I was looking online at what everyone had blogged about so far today, I was reminded once again about Mrs. P at A Little Pink in a World of Camo, and her incredible loss. When I think about that, I'm scared for my soon-to-be marine, but I'm also very proud of our soldiers and the sacrifices they make for the country we live in.

I attempted a nap, but got in a mere 15 of sleep before being woken by my brother and sister screaming at each other.....but atleast they have the liberty to scream at each other, right?

As soon as my mother realized I was awake, she burst into my bedroom, pale as a ghost. She had just gotten a call that my first cousin, Erica, at age 27 had passed away. Erica had a severe potassium deficiency that took her life today. My whole family was shocked.

I, as the oldest child in my family, had to accompany my mother to my grandparents house to deliver the terrible news. My grandparents were both heartbroken, as were the rest of us. I HATE seeing my grandparents upset. Especially my grandfather. He has been my rock through so much in my life, seeing him shaken gives me chills.

After about 4 hours, things with the fam began to settle as the horrible truth began to set in. At this time, I was forced to pack up my car, and make the 2 hour trip back to college.

It was full of sadness at the thought of losing Erica, leaving home again, and leaving my soulmate for another stint of time. But, sometimes life just throws us days like today.

I'd also like to take a moment to remember LCpl Dustin Lee who was killed in Iraq on this day 3 years ago. You are still remembered and missed by many. Save a spot in heaven for us.

Well, I guess the best way to sum this all up is simply by saying this:

Always take the time to tell your loved ones that you love them. Never leave the house, or go to bed angry. We are not promised tomorrow. We are only promised this moment, and we must take it, and make the most of it. Never say things without considering how they will affect the person you say them to. You never know when they might be the last words you get to speak to that person. Do me a favor, hug your loved ones tonight, tomorrow, and every day. And ALWAYS tell them you love them.

Happy Day

Today was great :). Got the spend the majority of the day with hubby-to-be and his mom and little brother. We had lunch at my future MIL's restaraunt, then spent all afternoon at Bass Pro Shop looking at boats and hubby-to-be shopped for fishing and hunting gear.

It was wonderful to spend one whole uninterrupted afternoon with him, as those are few and far between. Being in college two hours from home makes special time with him hard to come by. I hate that life requires us to spend so much time apart right now, and I can't wait until we can be together on a daily basis.

So, My new favorite word is......TEMPORARY.

Nursing school is temporary.
Current family drama is temporary.
My almost ancient car is temporary.

All of the negative or irritating things in my life are temporary. Which is quite wonderful. I'm just looking forward for the day when life gets easy, or well.......easier.

Well, I officially have 6 weeks left of school. That means, 6 weeks to lose 10+ pounds. Hellllllllloooo running shoes.

Here's the plan:
1) Run/walk/jog atleast three times a week.
2) Salads for lunch.
3) NO carbonated/caffeinated drinks.
4) 30 crunches & 10 sit ups a day.

I'm hoping to stick to stick with this regimine until school is out and see if i can tell a difference in the way my clothes/bikinis fit!
Hello beach bod!

Well, thats enough of my ramblings for now. Here are some pics from my day today :)

Me and the Hubby-to-be in the car :)

He slept, I took pictures...

Isn't he a handsome devil??

What he wants for his birthday. haha!

My super cute Guy Harvey t-shirt that Hubby-to-be bought me!

Countdown to Summer: 45 days.

Countdown till Baby leaves for Boot Camp: 140 days.

Productive. :)

Today has been productive. Hopped out of bed and got the house cleaned up just in time for my best friend to come and see me! First time i've seen her since early Feb. and it was wonderful!

You know you have a true friend when even if you havent seen each other in ages, the moment you do, it's like nothing has changed. You are still just as close as ever. I really don't even consider Lydia my best friend, she is my sister. Shes been in my life since we were 8 years old, and i wouldnt know what to do without her (Which is the reason she has been appointed my MOH)!

She has been an amazing support system to me throughout the trials I've dealt with while facing the adjustments of the fiance joining the USMC. She is always a constant that I can talk to, even if i call her at 3am, she is always there to talk to me/calm me down when i need it.

Well, after Lydia left, I got a visit from my great uncle and his daughter, which was lovely. I love that America's older generation is becoming tech savvy. No sooner had we sat down in the kitchen with a cup of coffee, did my sweet uncle whip out his Android and take my picture so he could "see how pretty I was" when he couldn't see me in person.

After my wonderful conversation with close family, i managed to make it to the grocery store...erm...grocery STORES to get things for supper. Yes, I actually had to go to THREE grocery stores to get all the ingredients for tacos. Yes, it was crazy. However, after conquering the grocery stores, i managed to get supper cooked, watch a 20/20 documentary, and take a long overdue bubble bath. NOTHING compares to a hot bath with candles and lavender :).

Didn't get to see my man today, which was a little depressing. But, tomorrow is a new day, so I have hopes of catching a peek at my honey then :). He seemed a little down and out today, but wouldn't spill.....hmm. I'll get it out of him tomorrow.

Anyways, as of today, life is pretty okay.

Countdown to Summer: 46 days.
Countdown until Baby leaves for Boot Camp: 142 days.

First.

Well, here goes. So, I got engaged and my boyfriend of 3 years joined the Marines all in the same weekend. Wow. What to think. While I'm extremely proud of him, I'm also very nervous about it all. I have so many concerns. Most of all, I'm not sure I'll make a good military wife. I don't know if I can handle the stress and worry put on the shoulders of someone who's married to the military. Granted, most of the men in my family are in the military. There's Army, Navy, Airforce...this is my first experience with the Marines.

I love my Marine, and I'm very proud of him. I just hope that I'm strong enough to be the support system he is going to need.
He leaves for bootcamp in august. So I have all summer to get ready. I need comfort and peace about this big decision in our lives.


I'm extremely excited about the engagement, though it appears it will be a long, drawn out one. I have to finish school, and he has to get through bootcamp and learn to live as a Marine before we can even begin to make wedding plans.
Tentative date: 7/27/2013.
Yes, I know. Too far away. But hopefully we will have time to be financially stable by then; Not to mention I will have adjusted to life as the Significant Other of one of America's few and proud.

I'm itching to start making wedding plans, even though it is so far away. However, I cant even begin to think about venues or really anything pertaining to the wedding, since I have no clue where he will be, or where I will be when the time comes. I guess that means its time to slow down, put wedding plans on the back burner for now, and finish nursing school.

This has been a long and agonizing semester. Summer, please hurry. I need some sun, a beach, and my man to heal all this discontentedness.

Oh well, none of those are happening tonight. So, I'm off to enjoy(ha!) sleeping alone again.....I keep telling myself its only temporary....