Sweet Summertime :)

First off, YAY for summer. Gosh, I'm like the happiest girl in the whole world right now. Here's an update on my life since school ended:

I successfully moved my stuff home BY MYSELF. I feel very accomplished. Granted, it took like....2 hours to get everything situated in the back of my SUV, but I did it! It was very empowering :) However, now that everything is home.....NOTHING is unpacked. It just seems like there is too much to do, too many people to see! There's no time to bother with unpacking (or blogging, until now. Sorry guys!).

I have started working on my tan, and I must say, it's beautiful :)

I've also enjoyed spending all my extra time with C. since he has been informed that he is next on the list to ship out if someone doesn't meet their requirements for any of the ship-out dates before his. He isn't scheduled to leave until the fall, but there are severeal dates coming up before then, so if someone doesnt make it, my baby will be gone early. I'm really hoping he doesnt have to go until his original leave date. I've got all the details worked out so I can be at graduation if he leaves when he is supposed to. If he leaves early, I'm not sure how well the arrangements can be made. Nursing school doesn't like to accomodate. :(

Anyways, I can't WAIT for this week to be over! All my friends that are going to the college here don't get out of school for another week. So, I haven't gotten to spend much time with them. However, that will change.

I'm just looking forward to spending this summer with C and our friends and trying to make memories before he leaves. It's still surreal sometimes that this is actually about to happen. I'm very proud of him, but i've always been freakishly scared of the unknown....so I'm definitely learning to adjust...

Ok, excuse me while I rant for a minute. I CAN'T STAND it when people start childish highschool drama. Just sayin. Especially when its people whose children are college-aged. It is just rediculous! And then, they want to blame it on the military. I mean, really?
Ok, so in case you haven't figured it out yet, C's dad and stepmom are not very supportive of his decision. So me, being the loud mouth that I am, told them what I thought about their non-supportiveness. So, that combined with me being rather blatant about my opinion on another subject has convinced them that I'm not worthy of their sons affections. Crazy, huh? I'm the only one who fully supports his decision and I think that its a crying shame. So, when C told them that he loved me anyways, and that just because they randomly decided to hate me didn't mean that he was going to, they decided to be shady towards him too. So he and I have been dealing with quite a bit of stress related to that. I mean, am I crazy?? Or is it completely retarded for parents to condemn their children for wanting to serve their country????

OK, enough. I'm done. Well, I could go on forever, but I won't. Number one, because I know you wonderful people don't read my blog to hear me whine. Number two, I'm on my way out the door to go eat catfish :)

Have a great night lovelies!

Until next time, love love love.

Countdown until C leaves for bootcamp: 163 days

Update :) I NEED SUGGESTIONS (see #4)

Yeah so, I know that my blogs have very bland titles right now...but give me a break. I don't have the brain space to come up with anything clever at the moment. However, I do have a few good things to share...

1.) Check-offs. Were today. I lived. I PASSED believe it or not. (Well, according to C, I was gonna pass all along, I wasnt so sure...). That's one HUGE weight off my shoulders. Now to study for my other 4 finals! Ugh!

2.) Housing. I DID get approved for my apartment next semester! Yay-uh! I can't wait to have a real kitchen....so I can cook real food! No more yucky cafeteria food!!!!!! (well, atleast a drastically reduced amount of yucky cafeteria food..) Also, my two best friends from school got an apartment in the same complex, so we will live right across the parking lot from each other!

3.) So, the apartment is actually about $700 cheaper than what I'm paying to live on campus (because meals arent included and such.) Soo, with that $700, I can afford to join the gym, go to the tanning bed, and lots of other really fun things next semester!

4.) So, I've decided to stop being a baby and do something big (well, big for me). I'm getting a tattoo. :)
It's quite a big step for me, since i've always been the child that followed the rules....and the incredibly pain intolerant one...(My mother would quite possibly have a heart attack if she knew.) But, I'm turning 21 this year....so I'm thinking that sounds like a pretty awesome birthday treat. BUT, I have no idea what to get! Please send your suggestions :)

5.) The job hunt continues. I applied for 5 more jobs today and emailed a nurse manager about possibly positions. It seems like this job thing is going to be the death of me. this is probably the 4th or 5th time I've sat down and applied for atleast 5 jobs. so that like what....20-25 job applications??? And I haven't heard from a single person....bleck. However, I have come to grips with the fact that I could possibly wait tables all summer if need be. I just have to SOMETHING to make money. *Oh the joys of student loans...*

6.) I haven't even started packing yet. Ugh. I have like....6 loads of laundry to do. No lie. But I don't know what I'll do with them once they're clean! No. Space. Whatsoever. Ugh. But my mommy is coming on sunday to take stuff home :) So, maybe I can get more organized after that.


Anyways, thats about it for now. Until next time, love love.

Countdown to Summer: 6 days
Countdown till C leaves for bootcamp: 173 days

Almost Summer!

Wow....Life could you please slow down long enough for me to breathe? K thanks.

Finals are here. Well, almost. I have finals on Wed., Fri., Sat., Mon., and Tues. Then I'm free!!!!

So, with that in mind:

Plans for the Summer:

1) Gym.
2) Tanning Bed.
3) BEACH.
4) Neshoba County Fair.
5) Hopefully find a job. (cross your fingers!)
6) Go to as many rodeos as I can stand.
7) Barrel Racing practice.
8) Buy furniture for my new apartment!
9) Spend as much time with C as possible :)

So....my summer is gonna be pretty damn awesome. Well, thats the plan anyway.

However, I still have finals and checkoffs to get through...but I'm feeling slightly less anxious/nervous/scared about it all. I'm just ready for the semester to be done. I really neet some serious TLC. I can't wait.

I just really hope that I can find a job. I've applied at what seems like a million places and I haven't heard from anyone. Ugh. I dunno what I'll do if I cant make any money this summer. But I guess for now the best thing to do is not fret about it until I get done with all my tests.

The next week is going to be very stressful, not only do I have four finals and checkoffs to study for, I also have to figure out how to pack all my stuff up to move two hours back home. I have so much stuff in this dorm room that I can barely move. Anyways, i guess i'll figure it out eventually. Anyways, thats enough for now. Time to crack the books....love love.

 Countdown to Summer: 10 days :)
 Countdown till C leaves for bootcamp: 177 days

Recently.

So...I know it's been absolutely forever since I last blogged. Life has been so crazy. There are officially 24 days until I'm out of school for the summer. However, within these twenty four days are numerous obstacles that absolutely scare the shit out of me. Let's take a look:

1) Check-Off. For those of you who don't know what check off is, it's basically a full head-to-toe assessment of a patient (or classmate), while an instructor hovers over your shoulder waiting for one tiny error so they can kick you out. Well, I'm pretty sure they dont like kicking people out....but it's still a great possibility. And by the way, a full head-to-toe, is EPIC. It includes every single tiny part of the body, both internally and externally...every nerve, muscle, and bone must be inspected, palpated, percussed, and auscultated. Needless to say, this is an extremely nerve-wracking process.

2) Nursing Exams. 4 exams in 5 days. It kind of makes me want to assume the fetal position and try to become invisible. Nursing tests are hard when i have one test, and two weeks to study for it. Four tests in one week is humanly impossible. I just cant imagine possibly passing them all with decent grades.

3) Room Sign Up. Well, room sign up doesnt exactly scare me, I mean, all I have to do is put my name down for where I want to live next semester (APARTMENT!). But, I don't have a roommate.....sooo, I am a little nervous about who will sign up to live with me. Being a nursing major an all, I can't exactly deal with a roommate who parties non-stop. I'm just hoping for the best.

In other news, I still havent heard anything about a job for the summer...I'm still applying though. I don't know what I'll do if I can't work. I desperately need some money. Plus, most of my summer plans include things that will require money.
Ugh. Well, I guess we will see what happens.

I absolutely can't wait for school to be over. I feel like it will be forever before I get to spend time with C (the fiance). It seems as though this whole USMC thing is starting to wear on us already...and it hasn't even begun. Don't get me wrong, I CAN HANDLE IT. It just seems like I get so edgy sometimes. It just breaks my heart that I can't spend time with him and I feel like there is constantly this clock ticking in my head.....counting down until he leaves. It drives me crazy some days. I pray that the summer will relieve some of this tension.

Well, I do have one really awesome thing that happened to me this week. I got to deliver a baby. Like, for real. My clinical group was at the hospital when this doctor comes up and is like "Hey, I need a student to come with me." So, I volunteered. He told me that I was about to deliver a baby and I thought I was going to pass out. He helped me scrub in to the exam room and i walk in to find a woman in labor. The doctor walked me through every step, from catching the baby, waiting for it to cry, passing it off to the nurse..delivering the mother's placenta, drawing blood from the umbilical cord, and performing an episiotomy. I know for most of you this sounds gross, but I was the envy of my nursing class!
There is something absolutely amazing about bringing life into the world....I've never felt an adrenaline rush like that before in my life. It was incredible.

But anyways, that's a pretty decent update on my life for now.

Until next time...

Countdown to Summer: 24 days
Countdow till C goes to bootcamp: 120 days

Hurry Up & Wait.

So, I'm becoming more and more stressed as the semester pushes toward the end. It just feels like school will NEVER end; summer will NEVER come; it will NEVER be time for me to get married. It just seems like my whole life is spent doing nothing but waiting for something better to happen.

I hate to be a kill-joy but I just can't make myself be positive today. It's a major accomplishment that I haven't just sat down and cried today. Of course, the fact that I'm pretty sure I failed a pharmacology test today might have something to do with why I want to cry....who knows.

It just seems like relief will never come. But, what can I do?

Nothing but hurry up and wait.

Countdown to Summer: 36 days.
Countdown till Baby goes to Boot Camp: 132 days.

Pigskin, anyone? Or, how about a Baby?

So, the school put on a great event tonight. They had a showing of "The Blind Side" on a big screen projector in the middle of the street. It was amazing! That is by far one of the best movies I've ever seen. Tonight was not my first time to see it, but it was most certainly just as good the second time around!


For those of you who don't know, The Blind Side is about a family from Southern Tennessee who adopt a homeless highschool boy. They take him in and start culturing him, eventually getting him involved in football. Long story short, the boy is an amazing football player who ends up going to Ole Miss on a football scholarship and upon graduating, signs with the Baltimore Ravens. Based on the true story of Michael Oher.


It's quite an inspiring tale!


It really really really really makes me wish it was football season! It makes life without my honey much easier to deal with when I can go to football games. He LOVES football, and when I'm at a game, I can almost hear him explaining the rules to me over and over and over again....like he did the first year we were together. I was completely clueless as to how the game actually worked when we began our relationship....I mean, I knew that the object was to score touchdowns....but that was about it. Now, after he has been so patient with me....explaining things hundreds of times until i understood, I can almost interpret the game as well as he can.


That's one of the things I love most about him; it has never mattered how stupid I thought the question might be, he has always done his best to explain things to me, and answer every single little frivolous question that runs through my head. I find it amazing that he even trys to follow some of the thoughts that go through my mind...cause LORD knows they dont all make sense. But he has always been patient with me when I had questions and for that, I'll always love him.


In other news, the weather is beginning to perk up, and it's absolutely beautiful. It makes these last few weeks of school MURDEROUS. I cannot explain the loathing in my heart that I have for college classes at the moment. Beach, Bikini, Pool, SUMMER...Where are you??? Please hurry before I die.


Also, update on clinicals: So, I was totally prepared to NOT enjoy pediatric clincals (I hate seeing kids cry/get shots/be sick and all that jazz). But I actually fell in LOVE with it! Not sure how to feel about that, since I swore I'd never work with peds. I guess we suprise ourselves sometimes.


This afternoon, we were working in the daycare down the road from the school. Our task was to perform a developmental assessment on a child anywhere between the ages of 2 months and 6 years. My partner, Tara, and I ended up in the 6-9 month old room. Now, for the record, I was very proud of myself after leaving the hospital nursery clinical two weeks ago. I resisted those babies like I was a pro. However, day care was a different story. I definitely had a case of baby fever when I left. Those babies were so stinkin' cute! I know what you're thinking..yeah...they're cute until they cry, or throw up, or you have to change their diapers...but I'm completely used to doing that. My little brother and sister are 7 and 9 years younger than me. I've experienced that side of child rearing and it totally doesnt bother me. I've been thrown up on before..and I still really want a baby. Oh well, perhaps when the time is right.....which is still a minimum of three years from now.


Anyways, I guess thats enough of my rambles for tonight. Sleep tight everyone. Or, instead of sleeping tight, you could always take after me and Sleep Safe (Sleep with a Marine). ;-)

Peace & Blessings <3

Countdown to Summer: 39 days
Countdown till my heart leaves for boot camp: 135 days

Peace & Blessings :)

Ok, so I'm a slacker and I never got around to my second post yesterday....well, today was a little better.

Even though I had to sit through class from 8:00-3:00..it was still an okay day i guess.

Well, tomorrow will be quite interesting...I'll spend from 9am to 5pm at a pediatric clinic in downtown Jackson....trying to do physical assessments on millions of sick grumpy children....joy. BUT.....something good did happen this week....my clinical for friday, April 2 got cancelled....so guess who gets an extra day off for Easter!!! Whoop Whoop! Contemplating going home thursday night to see the Mr.......hmmmm...I think he might like that. ;)

I'm quite excited that there are only 41 days left in the semester. Just sayin.

In other news, I adopted a soldier. :) I'm quite excited about it. I wrote my first letter to him today...gonna try to get it in the mail soon. I also sent him an email yesterday. I can't stand the thought of a single soldier fighting for our freedom without some support from home.

Hmm...tests next week....joy joy....well, guess i'd better start studying/ doing laundry....

Peace & Blessings Ya'll.
<3 - Hannah