Not Me Monday!

So...I got this idea from Mrs. S over at The Adventures of Mr. Superman and Mrs. S and I thought I'd give it a try!

Here's a flashback from my week:


Last monday I definitely did not lay out on the beach with C for 2 hours. I didn't yell at the clouds for covering the sun while I was trying to tan, and I most certainly did not jump up and down like a crazy person when I realized last years bikini fit MUCH cuter this year. Thats something a 16 year old, single, self-image obsessed highschool girl with tons of extra time on her hands would do, not me.

Wednesday I did not have an emotional breakdown and run crying to C's house at 8 pm. I preceded not to spend the next two hours crying my eyes out on his bed over unnecessary drama. I didn't call my best friend crying, only to hang up on her a few seconds later leaving her utterly confused, and I definitely did not play pool until 1 am because it distracted me from life. That's something an emotionally unstable drama queen would do, not me.

Thursday I most certainly didn't spend 3 hours watching prime time television. I did not get super-excited about the season finale of Private Practice, and I definitely did not get even more excited about this weeks season finale of Grey's Anatomy. (and in case you are wondering, i'm definitely not obsessed with Grey's!)
I also did not demand that momma pause the DVR several times throughout the 3 hours of not watching TV so I could pee. Thats something a TV addict would do, not me.

Friday, I was not the one clapping loudest, or screaming loudest, for my best friend as she graduated with her associates degree. I did not stand up and clap when she walked across the stage, and I most certainly did not whistle obnoxiously loud for her in an otherwise quiet auditorium. That's something an obnoxious sports fan would do, not me.

Saturday, I did not spend all day sleeping and playing video games. I didn't leave the house, spur of the moment, to go with "my boys" on a random road trip 45 minutes from home, to spend 3 hours walking around walmart. That's something a silly teenager would do, not me.

What did you not do?

Help! Help! Advice needed!!!

I'm getting so lazy with these entries. UGH. Shame on me. Summer is definitely here. I'm LOVING my tan (even though its barely visible, but, I'm working on that)!

Soooo, I need some help! C has decided that we should up the wedding. He thinks we should get married when he finishes boot camp, which will be January. I haven't completely agreed yet, since I had my heart set on finishing college before we marry. However, he makes a good point. He will spend almost a year after boot camp in SOI and Sniper School and I can finish school. Plus, If we go ahead and get married, he can send me the extra money to pay my bills/buy groceries/live instead of being a broke college kid...I just don't know! I really want a traditional wedding, with all the frills that go with it; but if we get married so soon, there won't be time to plan all that, or money to get everything with. It's sooooo much to think about! What do you think????? I desperately need some input!

Sing It Sunday!/Happy Mother's Day!

Sing It Sunday!

Music is a HUGE part of my life. Sometimes a song can reflect exactly how I'm feeling when I can't find the words to do it myself. It doesn't matter what I'm doing. Driving, laying out, cooking, cleaning, doing homework, running...there is ALWAYS music involved. So, I thought I would share with you guys, some of the songs that are currently on my most-listened-to list. Enjoy!


All Over Me by Josh Turner

This is my theme song! I'm a summer child, for sure. I'm happiest when its 90+ degrees outside and I'm on the beach/boat/lake etc. Plus, I just moved back home from college and I'm just now starting to spend some real quality time with C. So this song completely fits my life! Love love love it!

Jump by Flo Rida

Okay, so I've been running almost every day. Go me! Anyways, this is one of the most EPIC running songs ever. It just makes me wanna run faster and faster! It definitely pumps me up and keeps me going when I wanna be lazy and quit! Haha.

Love Your Love The Most by Eric Church

Story time! Ok so, when this song first came out, C heard it before I did. He called me, but I didnt get to the radio in time.....then a few days later, I caught the very end of it on the radio....He finally sat me down in front of YouTube and played it for me (and sang it!). It's been "our song" ever since. It was the song played to a slideshow of pictures I gave him for out 2 year anniversary, and also the first song we danced to when we reconciled after our breakup last year. This song means alot to me.

Tik Tok by Ke$ha

Mmk, This one had to make the list, just because its been dubbed the official "girls night" song for my group of friends. Haha. This MUST be played in the car on the way to the bar or someone freaks. haha. Just something fun to be silly to.

Ok, well there's this weeks sneak peak into my iPod!

Now, i'd like to wish all the bloggy momas a BIG Happy Mother's Day! Enjoy your day (and your sweet babies)! I salute you for being the strong one when your man is away. The rest of us have the liberty to break down whenever we feel like it. You all have to put on a smile and hold it together for those little ones who don't understand. I commend you for that. Congrats on being supermom. :)

Sweet Summertime :)

First off, YAY for summer. Gosh, I'm like the happiest girl in the whole world right now. Here's an update on my life since school ended:

I successfully moved my stuff home BY MYSELF. I feel very accomplished. Granted, it took like....2 hours to get everything situated in the back of my SUV, but I did it! It was very empowering :) However, now that everything is home.....NOTHING is unpacked. It just seems like there is too much to do, too many people to see! There's no time to bother with unpacking (or blogging, until now. Sorry guys!).

I have started working on my tan, and I must say, it's beautiful :)

I've also enjoyed spending all my extra time with C. since he has been informed that he is next on the list to ship out if someone doesn't meet their requirements for any of the ship-out dates before his. He isn't scheduled to leave until the fall, but there are severeal dates coming up before then, so if someone doesnt make it, my baby will be gone early. I'm really hoping he doesnt have to go until his original leave date. I've got all the details worked out so I can be at graduation if he leaves when he is supposed to. If he leaves early, I'm not sure how well the arrangements can be made. Nursing school doesn't like to accomodate. :(

Anyways, I can't WAIT for this week to be over! All my friends that are going to the college here don't get out of school for another week. So, I haven't gotten to spend much time with them. However, that will change.

I'm just looking forward to spending this summer with C and our friends and trying to make memories before he leaves. It's still surreal sometimes that this is actually about to happen. I'm very proud of him, but i've always been freakishly scared of the unknown....so I'm definitely learning to adjust...

Ok, excuse me while I rant for a minute. I CAN'T STAND it when people start childish highschool drama. Just sayin. Especially when its people whose children are college-aged. It is just rediculous! And then, they want to blame it on the military. I mean, really?
Ok, so in case you haven't figured it out yet, C's dad and stepmom are not very supportive of his decision. So me, being the loud mouth that I am, told them what I thought about their non-supportiveness. So, that combined with me being rather blatant about my opinion on another subject has convinced them that I'm not worthy of their sons affections. Crazy, huh? I'm the only one who fully supports his decision and I think that its a crying shame. So, when C told them that he loved me anyways, and that just because they randomly decided to hate me didn't mean that he was going to, they decided to be shady towards him too. So he and I have been dealing with quite a bit of stress related to that. I mean, am I crazy?? Or is it completely retarded for parents to condemn their children for wanting to serve their country????

OK, enough. I'm done. Well, I could go on forever, but I won't. Number one, because I know you wonderful people don't read my blog to hear me whine. Number two, I'm on my way out the door to go eat catfish :)

Have a great night lovelies!

Until next time, love love love.

Countdown until C leaves for bootcamp: 163 days

Update :) I NEED SUGGESTIONS (see #4)

Yeah so, I know that my blogs have very bland titles right now...but give me a break. I don't have the brain space to come up with anything clever at the moment. However, I do have a few good things to share...

1.) Check-offs. Were today. I lived. I PASSED believe it or not. (Well, according to C, I was gonna pass all along, I wasnt so sure...). That's one HUGE weight off my shoulders. Now to study for my other 4 finals! Ugh!

2.) Housing. I DID get approved for my apartment next semester! Yay-uh! I can't wait to have a real kitchen....so I can cook real food! No more yucky cafeteria food!!!!!! (well, atleast a drastically reduced amount of yucky cafeteria food..) Also, my two best friends from school got an apartment in the same complex, so we will live right across the parking lot from each other!

3.) So, the apartment is actually about $700 cheaper than what I'm paying to live on campus (because meals arent included and such.) Soo, with that $700, I can afford to join the gym, go to the tanning bed, and lots of other really fun things next semester!

4.) So, I've decided to stop being a baby and do something big (well, big for me). I'm getting a tattoo. :)
It's quite a big step for me, since i've always been the child that followed the rules....and the incredibly pain intolerant one...(My mother would quite possibly have a heart attack if she knew.) But, I'm turning 21 this year....so I'm thinking that sounds like a pretty awesome birthday treat. BUT, I have no idea what to get! Please send your suggestions :)

5.) The job hunt continues. I applied for 5 more jobs today and emailed a nurse manager about possibly positions. It seems like this job thing is going to be the death of me. this is probably the 4th or 5th time I've sat down and applied for atleast 5 jobs. so that like what....20-25 job applications??? And I haven't heard from a single person....bleck. However, I have come to grips with the fact that I could possibly wait tables all summer if need be. I just have to SOMETHING to make money. *Oh the joys of student loans...*

6.) I haven't even started packing yet. Ugh. I have like....6 loads of laundry to do. No lie. But I don't know what I'll do with them once they're clean! No. Space. Whatsoever. Ugh. But my mommy is coming on sunday to take stuff home :) So, maybe I can get more organized after that.


Anyways, thats about it for now. Until next time, love love.

Countdown to Summer: 6 days
Countdown till C leaves for bootcamp: 173 days

Almost Summer!

Wow....Life could you please slow down long enough for me to breathe? K thanks.

Finals are here. Well, almost. I have finals on Wed., Fri., Sat., Mon., and Tues. Then I'm free!!!!

So, with that in mind:

Plans for the Summer:

1) Gym.
2) Tanning Bed.
3) BEACH.
4) Neshoba County Fair.
5) Hopefully find a job. (cross your fingers!)
6) Go to as many rodeos as I can stand.
7) Barrel Racing practice.
8) Buy furniture for my new apartment!
9) Spend as much time with C as possible :)

So....my summer is gonna be pretty damn awesome. Well, thats the plan anyway.

However, I still have finals and checkoffs to get through...but I'm feeling slightly less anxious/nervous/scared about it all. I'm just ready for the semester to be done. I really neet some serious TLC. I can't wait.

I just really hope that I can find a job. I've applied at what seems like a million places and I haven't heard from anyone. Ugh. I dunno what I'll do if I cant make any money this summer. But I guess for now the best thing to do is not fret about it until I get done with all my tests.

The next week is going to be very stressful, not only do I have four finals and checkoffs to study for, I also have to figure out how to pack all my stuff up to move two hours back home. I have so much stuff in this dorm room that I can barely move. Anyways, i guess i'll figure it out eventually. Anyways, thats enough for now. Time to crack the books....love love.

 Countdown to Summer: 10 days :)
 Countdown till C leaves for bootcamp: 177 days

Recently.

So...I know it's been absolutely forever since I last blogged. Life has been so crazy. There are officially 24 days until I'm out of school for the summer. However, within these twenty four days are numerous obstacles that absolutely scare the shit out of me. Let's take a look:

1) Check-Off. For those of you who don't know what check off is, it's basically a full head-to-toe assessment of a patient (or classmate), while an instructor hovers over your shoulder waiting for one tiny error so they can kick you out. Well, I'm pretty sure they dont like kicking people out....but it's still a great possibility. And by the way, a full head-to-toe, is EPIC. It includes every single tiny part of the body, both internally and externally...every nerve, muscle, and bone must be inspected, palpated, percussed, and auscultated. Needless to say, this is an extremely nerve-wracking process.

2) Nursing Exams. 4 exams in 5 days. It kind of makes me want to assume the fetal position and try to become invisible. Nursing tests are hard when i have one test, and two weeks to study for it. Four tests in one week is humanly impossible. I just cant imagine possibly passing them all with decent grades.

3) Room Sign Up. Well, room sign up doesnt exactly scare me, I mean, all I have to do is put my name down for where I want to live next semester (APARTMENT!). But, I don't have a roommate.....sooo, I am a little nervous about who will sign up to live with me. Being a nursing major an all, I can't exactly deal with a roommate who parties non-stop. I'm just hoping for the best.

In other news, I still havent heard anything about a job for the summer...I'm still applying though. I don't know what I'll do if I can't work. I desperately need some money. Plus, most of my summer plans include things that will require money.
Ugh. Well, I guess we will see what happens.

I absolutely can't wait for school to be over. I feel like it will be forever before I get to spend time with C (the fiance). It seems as though this whole USMC thing is starting to wear on us already...and it hasn't even begun. Don't get me wrong, I CAN HANDLE IT. It just seems like I get so edgy sometimes. It just breaks my heart that I can't spend time with him and I feel like there is constantly this clock ticking in my head.....counting down until he leaves. It drives me crazy some days. I pray that the summer will relieve some of this tension.

Well, I do have one really awesome thing that happened to me this week. I got to deliver a baby. Like, for real. My clinical group was at the hospital when this doctor comes up and is like "Hey, I need a student to come with me." So, I volunteered. He told me that I was about to deliver a baby and I thought I was going to pass out. He helped me scrub in to the exam room and i walk in to find a woman in labor. The doctor walked me through every step, from catching the baby, waiting for it to cry, passing it off to the nurse..delivering the mother's placenta, drawing blood from the umbilical cord, and performing an episiotomy. I know for most of you this sounds gross, but I was the envy of my nursing class!
There is something absolutely amazing about bringing life into the world....I've never felt an adrenaline rush like that before in my life. It was incredible.

But anyways, that's a pretty decent update on my life for now.

Until next time...

Countdown to Summer: 24 days
Countdow till C goes to bootcamp: 120 days